The deeper ones. . . ! Part-1

Forever been a passionate follower of the Sherlock Holmes series... And was lucky to have had my hand on few of the English oldies based on the book. I have always been baffled and sometimes annoyed by the vocabulary of the author of this series - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle... annoyed cos he makes me use the dictionary almost all the while... Baffled for the depth in his words and the richness in his philosophy. To give the least feel of it, I write on here, a dialogue in the movie "The Pearl of Death"...

"No more than a symbol of greed and cruelty and lust for power that have set men at each other’s throats down thro the centuries and the struggle will go on Watson… for a pearl, a kingdom, perhaps even world dominion till the greed and cruelty have burnt out of every last one of us. And when that time comes, perhaps even this pearl will be washed clean again..."

 I thought these words would be a fine beginning for this post... Movies have been a great way to while away time for me these days. I have never been moved by emotions on the screen (excluding Taare Zameen Par and the like) and never have I thought so much after watching a movie than I did post "Luck by chance" with Sushi and TR (No.. that's not Simbu's dad! This guy is more hilarious and expressive than him and hey...! Does speak good English haan?!)... I remember telling TR i did not know how to react at the end of the movie. Was I to feel happy? Sad? Contented? Come on guys...! It is just fine with me to spend 3 hours to try to find out what the makers wanted to say, but I should know it at the end! You can't make me feel numb (rather dumb??)! 

But on the way back, it dawned on me that the movie said everything subtly, in deep silence... The darkness in the film industry, the clash of ethics, the silly courage of power, the stupid reason to corrupt or flatter, the lust for stardom, the idiocy of greed and the basic realities of falsehood.... It said it all. And it made it me think on all that night. 

The film, by fair judgments, was the best ever known realistic portrayal of the film industry... But it hurt me, in true sense, about how extremely selfish people can become. It made me feel I was in a big big selfish world around me.. I was seeing probably all roses. It made me realise there is no right or wrong in the world. There are no ethical rules for the world. Ethics are self made, self tailored and self amended!! 

I wouldn't be right in saying I'm totally selfless. After all, none of us are. But on my scale, it is not being selfish when you think about yourself. It is being selfish when you think ONLY about yourself. And this latter statement was just the theme of the hero's line in the movie. I, in fact, started wondering if I will have to do all this foul play to move on big in life?! Is it a reality I'm missing to see? Am I moving on blindfolded? Or am I adamant not to remove the blinds?

My thoughts swirled all night... I spent hours listening to my favourite bhajans to interrupt my thought process. A guy with a unique craze for numbers - You know how I would take comfort on uncertainties of future! Watch the trends... Look at past performance... Extrapolate!! I did the same. 

I wasn't born with a silver spoon... But it hasn't been such a rugged path for me till here. I haven't achieved pinnacles but I'm climbing pretty fast. The people I have met, the buddies who love me, almost everyone who knows me - I don't think I have played a selfish game for winning their hearts. I have never buttered someone to take on good projects at work... But i still hold a good place in my organisation. And I still work on the real big projects! And then did it dawn (reality as well as a metaphor!!) that THE SECRET is all that matters!! The altitude of thoughts, the purity of heart will take you wherever you have to go. After all, I don't say God takes me wherever I have to go. I take responsibilities for my life. So aethists, beware before you comment on this!! 

I would just say that I believe, "At the end of the day, it does not matter at all how big you are outside. What matters is how big you are within...!"

This is just the beginning of the secret! TR has a major role to play in the episodes to be narrated henceforth... So See you soon guys!! Do comment... I know you have quite an opinion on this...

Love..

Sri!!