It just doesn't matter!!

What am I doing at 11pm in the night without already awaiting good dreams?! What the hell am I trying to do logging into my laptop at this odd hour in the night??! Why have I behaved so barbarian like and yelled at home all thro today? Why did I refuse to move an inch from where I was sitting over the past seven hours? I don't know.. And the conclusion is simple.. I"VE GONE CRAZY!!

I have always wondered and criticized people who follow cricket so crazily.

"Are these guys out of their mind?"
"Got nothing else to be bothered about?"
"Jobless people treating a game as anything but a game"

I apologize guys... If the game can make someone as indifferent as me to do all the things I listed above, it deserves to be treated more than "JUST A GAME"... The spirit that the last two weeks has induced in me is beyond my fathoming. What cricket has done to me is something I'm indebted to forever! I, never in my wildest dreams, imagined I will shout at the top of my voice for every ball, every stroke... Wept when the moment came up... "INDIAAAAA.. INDIA" is what I have messaged the most this day... Can I myself believe I chanted Chamakam for India to win this day?

It doesn't matter who you are; whether you like cricket or not; whether you know the rules or not... IT JUST DOESN'T MATTER.. For the indomitable spirit of this crazy nation, for the love my people have for the game and the title, for the million prayers across the nation, for the "God of Cricket", JAI HO!! This moment captured in my amateur words will stay with me all life just as the other one I wrote on 13 Aug'09.

I swear... on this great occasion, not to use the words, "JUST A GAME" ever again in my life... for any sport.

Sri...

Well, I do believe!!

I believe...
I'm good, growing and learning; though I know
I am not seeing enough of the million lessons that are being orchestrated for me.

I believe...
I'm being tuned every moment by invisible hands to be what is planned for me, yet
I keep screeching like the old radio, without knowing which frequency to capture.

I believe...
I'm living my life the way I want it, yet causing the irony -
Stopping a lot of people from living lives the way they want to.

I believe...
I'm running to be the best of men I know, though I sincerely acknowledge
I am not even there in the league that's racing.

I believe...
I'm being hand held and guided along my path, yet screwed up on my head
Not to believe it most times and venture the dark in vain.

I believe...
I am down-to-earth, though at times people say,
"Your earth is slightly above mine".

I believe...
I'm an extrovert caring loads for people I love, yet
so selfish and introvertic not to love the people I don't love.

I believe...
I'm blessed to be embraced and cuddled by so many, though
I'm silly enough to throw away relations at will, without thought.

I believe...
I'm doing quite a lot for my world, also knowing
"Quite a lot" is not quite enough for my world.

I believe...
I'm devouring my ego myself and being humbler, but hey..
I want to devour it myself. Who are you to insult me?

I believe...
I'd someday be an inspiration for someone if not many, in spite of knowing
Day dreaming is not so great after all, "day working" is.

I believe...
I'd be missed when I am gone, though I know
It is not so bad as people missing me when I'm still around

I believe...
I will soon find some reason for believing all this,
And I more than believe that this reason exists!

For without this reason, without this will, We wouldn't exist.
What am I if I don't believe?!

With loads of faith,
Sri...